Let’s get this out of the way. Ok, I’m holding my hands up right now and admitting that the blog took the back seat AGAIN. We started off the new year with exciting plans and a huge sense of direction for Debra-Bow, my little self-named blog, but life got in the way, once again. BUT, for once we have an extremely positive, happy update. A lot of things have happened this last few months, some of which I’ve had to take time to accept and take in, but the majority of events have led to now… a new chapter, a new beginning and so much more happiness. So, what’s happened?
RETURNING TO MY ROOTS
I never realised how many people take notice of the small things I share on social media, so let’s address the elephant in the room. I moved back home to my parents. In the summer of 2016, my boyfriend at the time and I moved out together. We had some of the most amazing years of our life with plenty of ups and downs, but sometimes, things have to come to an end. Some events deserve its own privacy and this is one of them, especially when two people are involved but if you notice a change of scenery in my posts then you’ll know exactly why. I spent the last few weeks moving my entire life back to my childhood bedroom, which from that brought a new decorating project, a lot of organising, shopping and figuring out how I’m supposed to fit a whole makeup room into one shared space. My family have been absolutely incredible and in order to suite my working needs, we’ve made some plans for the house so keep a look out for future projects. Our cat, Bear, came home to my parents with me so a lot of my attention has been focused on settling him in – but he’s doing fantastic and we’re both very happy!
Six months ago, if you would’ve asked me whether I could ever see myself going home again I’d have told you no; but I think a large reason for the straight answer was that I worked with my parents, so I didn’t miss them when I left home like I would have done if we didn’t work together but being able to take care of them now I’m back home again has been incredible. Our relationships have grown stronger and I’ve never felt so at home, y’know?
I always try and keep my blog up-to-date with where I’m at with my anxiety at this moment in time; we only spoke about it recently in this blog post: SHAKING UP MY CAREER, ANXIETY UPDATE & BROKEN FRIENDSHIPS – but amazingly, so much has happened since I last sat down and wrote that so we have some talkin’ to do. I touched on getting more help from my Doctors in that post without letting on too much. The panic attacks had hit an all time high, so I was seeing a new doctor in the end who had more experience with mental health, her advice, support and help all round has been, and still is, incredible. In the short space of six months my anxiety has gone from peak level to a place where I FINALLY feel like I’m starting to take control again. For so many years of my life, I’ve felt lost, with no strength to take over the reigns when it came to my anxiety but for the first time in a very long time I’m in a positive head space where I’m beginning to feel like I WILL live an anxiety free life, some day. There’s always work to be done but I know where I’m at, and where I’m going. I‘m SO HAPPY! My anxiety updates always get far too long, so I promise I’ll go into one individual post and talk about my recent experience, things I’ve learnt and what I’ve done to get me to where I am today. I know that so many people who read my blog have been and still are in the same boat and thats why I continue to share my own experience. So let’s do it together.
FEELIN’ LIKE I’VE FOUND MY PLACE
This last few months have been a huge whirlwind, but one of the best things to come out of it is my relationship with my friends. A lot of my friendships have grown stronger, mostly down to how the people in my circle stepped up when I truly needed them the most but it’s made me feel so full of love. I’m taking time out of my day and week to spend more time with those I love and it’s filled my brain with nothing but positivity. I’m laughing more, I’m smiling more and we’re making so many new memories. With that, comes plenty of exciting plans for this year… All of a sudden I’ve gone from zero plans to so many that I can’t find a moment to take a break – but for once in my life I’m absolutely loving it. I’ve been such a stay at home bird kinda’ person for the last two years but with my anxiety improving its opened up so many new doors and I’m all for it.
MY NAME WAS FEATURED IN A NATIONWIDE NEWSPAPER!
Picture this: Monday morning, I had just arrived at work – I picked my phone up after the short ten minute commute expecting nothing but a bunch of notifications from having tweet notifications on for all my BFF’s. To find I had a message to my business Facebook page and a tweet from one of my best friends telling me I’d been mentioned in an article all about the Makeup Revolution concealer. You can view MY post here. I read into the article linked to see that The Daily Mail online had quoted my opinion, blog post and even called me a high-profiled blogger. THIS IS WHEN THE TEARS STARTED. I never expected my little blog would even gain attention of the general public, let alone one of the biggest papers in the UK. I’m just little ol’ Bow from Doncaster! I ran into the office and screamed it to everybody that would listen. CRAZY! I’m still struggling to believe its all real but HEEYYY, if you wanna’ see the article and where they quoted me you can here: https://goo.gl/UYjqXQ
MEETING NEW PEOPLE, A NEW CHAPTER
Already, so many new doors have opened with incredible people and opportunities behind them bringing me so much hope and happiness for the future. I’ve lost loved ones that I never expected would ever leave my life but I’ve also gained new people that have given me more than I could ever have imagined and to me, it’s the best and biggest gain anybody could have. For the first time in many years I’m genuinely happy, I feel strong, content and that I’m ready to take on anything that comes my way. The New Year started a little over four months ago but right now feels like the start.
Theres so much happening in my own personal life and with my blog this year, I’m so excited to take you with me the whole way. New people, new adventures, new countries and new beginnings.
As always, Debra-Bow xxx